Trying to do better

I have sat down several times over the past couple of days to write. The words are floating in my head, I just can't seem to get them to form sentences. It's like they are mocking me and taunting me.

I try to do right by everyone around me. But it seems that I have failed a lot at that lately.
By not allowing D to take care of me I am hurting him. I never want to be the reason for his pain. I don't want to be the cause for anyone in my life that is important to me. So, I am trying to do better.
I want so much to take care of those around me that I forget that I need care too. And that there are those in my life that want to care for me.

I will do better.